So I'm pretty sure that everyone has thought about the beginning of existence before, and it's a very weird thing to think about. I was thinking about it today and I took it a step farther than I've ever gone before.
There's many theories about the beginning of the universe, but most people are going to go with either creationism (Christianity) or the big bang theory (science). I've seen the following situation arise countless times: Atheists ridicule Christians on how ridiculous their religion sounds and how there's no way it can be true.
Today I started thinking about how the same can be said for their belief. The big bang theory in a nutshell pretty much just says that an extremely small bit of matter exploded to form the universe. This is where I got to thinking "Well that's all fine and good, but where did that small bit of matter come from?" It had to come from somewhere. The explosion to create the universe couldn't happen out of nothing, because there's nothing there to explode.
Going back to the creationism side, there's still unanswered questions. I've lived in a Christian home my entire life and am a Christian myself, but there's one question that always stumps me: where did God come from? I have no problem believing in a divine being that can do things such as create the world, but where did he come from? God logically has to be created by someone or something, but that just leads to more questions. We then have to think about where that someone or something came from, which leads to a never ending chain of divine beings creating other divine beings. This would also mean that there would be beings more powerful than God, which doesn't make any sense because God is all-powerful. All of this would also obviously go against the Christian faith, meaning that it can't be true (not much point in a creationism theory that goes against Christianity).
Going by this logic, both theories come back to one problem that can't be solved: where did that first being/chunk of matter come from? Christians say that God has been here since the beginning of time, but that just made me think when was the beginning of time? This question gave me some really weird feelings. I tried to think about before the beginning of time and I couldn't. It would just be absolute nothingness. There wouldn't even be space, because that would have to be created. Just total, absolute, nothingness. This was giving me weird feelings because humans cannot fathom the idea of total nothingness. This is possibly because there's nothing too fathom. It's just absolutely nothing. This got me thinking that you also cannot fathom the beginning, because beginning would include the time of absolute nothingness. You could go back trillions upon trillions upon trillions of years, and it would still just be that same nothingness. There's no possible way to think of the beginning of nothing. I mainly focused on Christianity right there, but the exact same goes for the big bang theory because there has to be a beginning to that somewhere.
Well, all of that probably didn't make any sense, but yeah, just some stuff I thought about today.