28 Gen 2013 · Da mymusicrevolution.blogspot.com/ ·
It's been four months since Smoke
and Booze came out.
The last one's a poster for my show at the House of Blues.
This is the
music video for Smoke and Booze
But I wrote a better song after Smoke and Booze.
And did the
only been four months. It's not like Smoke and Booze made any money
for me, but having the video is giving me a buzz. I live in Los
Angeles now. California. I wonder where I'll be next year at this
time. Maybe I'll keep up with this blog. Maybe.
23 Set 2012 · Da mymusicrevolution.blogspot.com/ ·
Yeah I haven't been on this thing in forever, but I just want
to make sure I remember this day.
January 27th 2013 -
13 Nov 2011 · Da mymusicrevolution.blogspot.com/ ·
That show at PA's Lounge sucked, fuck that venue. I had never
been there before (it's 21+ so I couldn't unless I was performing),
but now that I've performed there I see that it's a damn hole in
the wall. I also had to cuss out the bartender because he gave me
an attitude, the piece of shit. I was going into the men's bathroom
(because the woman's was occupied, I really had to go, it's a
single bathroom anyway, and there was no sign on the door saying
men's) and he says to me, "That's men's. Are you a man?" So I say
"Did you just fucking ask me if I'm a man?" And he says, "No I was
saying that is a men's bathroom." "NO, you just FUCKING asked me if
I'm a man. I DIDN'T ASK FOR YOUR FUCKING SARCASM, DO I LOOK LIKE A
MAN?" Then I drop my free beer disk and tell him to give me a
fucking Sam Adams and wobble away.
So the show was shit and I'm losing grip, completely
unrelated. Anyway, talk to you next time nobody!
10 Nov 2011 · Da mymusicrevolution.blogspot.com/ ·
In every life there comes a
When soul and universe align
All tribulations fall in
In due time, in due time
She's waited patiently and
She's known the outcome all
One day the world will sing her
Won't be long, won't be long
The bell will toll for this old
Who's trapped inside her bitter
She'll die and rise up once
Our old friend, our old
And when she's gone from this
The world will recognize her
And so this august universe
Turns and turns, turns and
7 Nov 2011 · Da mymusicrevolution.blogspot.com/ ·
This past weekend was pretty okay, only thing that sucked is
that I barely got any sleep and my finger got slammed by a door.
Other than that, it was smooth sailing. I hung out with Maggie at
Tufts on Saturday night, smoked, saw the Tufts/NEC dual-degree
concert (which was pretty good), drank, stayed up till 3, went to
some cool art studios Sunday morning, then went to my photo shoot.
Definitely an okay weekend. Should I dare call it... good? Yes! It
was a good weekend indeed. Now to relax, I'm hoping for a good week
That's all I feel like typing, my crippled finger is really
bringing me down =[
4 Nov 2011 · Da mymusicrevolution.blogspot.com/ ·
Last night was terrible. I dreamed
that I was drowning. I woke up throwing my arms about and gasping
If there is some area in your life
where you are - or feel - unable to 'keep your head above water',
this is probably what the dream is about. Dreams that follow may
tell you what to do about the situation. You can either change the
situation or change yourself, so that you react differently, or
remove yourself (physically) from the situation.
The dream also shows how you are being overwhelmed by your
emotions. You may fear sinking financially or be drowning in your
difficulties. Do you feel that, in waking life, you are being
'sucked into' something you would rather not be a part of? Pause
for a while and make sure you have your feet firmly on solid
ground' before you make any major decision.
Finally, after a (long) while, I
was able to get back to bed. But I had another dream... one where I
was shopping but couldn't decide on anything.
To dream that
you cannot find what you are shopping for suggests that you are
trying to find a solution to some life problem.
So, my subconscious is feeling
overwhelmed, and though it tried, it cannot find a solution to my
life "problem", which most likely has to do with music and feeling
stressed lately. I woke up worried and thinking that I need to stop
what I'm doing before the stress swallows me whole.. but then I
opened Facebook to see my page has risen from 100 likes to almost
200 likes, when just a few days ago getting one like was as
difficult as pulling teeth. How ironic.. I feel like there is an
external force that has something to do with this. I'm not the kind
of person to believe in ethereal interference, but I'm also not the
kind of person who has two dreams in one night, both of which I
remember (not an easy task for me!) and both of which scared the
shit out of me. The second scared me only because it seemed like a
response to the first. I also woke up hearing strange noises.. It
sounded like the light switch was turning on and off but no light
was emitting from the bulb.
It was a strange night to say the
3 Nov 2011 · Da mymusicrevolution.blogspot.com/ ·
The sun warming the earth on a cold day
Your love in your arms making the darkness go away
Songbirds chirping softly in the trees and sky
Letting life go by without worrying about the time
I don't know, I'm not in the mood to write. I just want
something to remind me to smile from time to time, to remember
what's important in life, because I always seem to forget. I wish I
had an off button, a "cool down" or a "shut down" that could make
stop my work from infiltrating my day, my life, my
time to relax. But I can't. Why? Because I'm getting closer.
Is that it? Getting closer. How far am I? Maybe all I've
traveled isn't even half-way there. Maybe it gets easier. But the
fact remains that even if it got harder, I would continue, and for
that reason alone it may be a long time until I'm able to say I'm
genuinely happy again.
Until then, cheers.
forgot, I was in DigBoston for that show at The Estate.
the flyer is up for my shows at PA's Lounge and
Life seems good, doesn't it?
27 Ott 2011 · Da mymusicrevolution.blogspot.com/ ·
So, October was cool, especially with Occupy going on. But
November seems to have potential. November has the kind of cold
that awakens your spirit, but isn't icy enough to freeze your soul.
Yes, November.. Important shows are coming up, and I seem to be the
most stressed I've ever been, while at the same time, there is an
eerie calm settling about me. I don't have much to say anymore.
I found a pair of glasses I like.
16 Ott 2011 · Da mymusicrevolution.blogspot.com/ ·
That was a great ass show! Yeah I didn't sell one ticket, but
I was the best act in the house. Go figure..
10 Ott 2011 · Da mymusicrevolution.blogspot.com/ ·
Yeah nobody's gonna buy tickets for my show on Thurs.
Everyone has better things to do. Can't blame them though, it's
also 21+, which rules out most of my friends. Whatever, I'll rock
the house, however empty it may be.
PS. So tired of the Indie life.. I have an interview at
Guitar Center. If I don't get the job, something is seriously wrong
Oh, and I got an online interview up on
27 Set 2011 · Da mymusicrevolution.blogspot.com/ ·
Stop thinking, and end your problems.
What difference between yes and no?
What difference between success and failure?
Must you value what others value,
avoid what others avoid?
Other people are excited,
as though they were at a parade.
I alone don't care,
I alone am expressionless,
like an infant before it can smile.
Other people have what they need;
I alone possess nothing.
I alone drift about,
like someone without a home.
I am like an idiot, my mind is so empty.
Other people are bright;
I alone am dark.
Other people are sharp;
I alone am dull.
Other people have purpose;
I alone don't know.
I drift like a wave on the ocean,
I blow as aimless as the wind.
I am different from ordinary people.
I drink from the Great Mother's breasts.
― Lao Tzu,
Tao Te Ching
20 Set 2011 · Da mymusicrevolution.blogspot.com/ ·
HEYYYY HEYYYY HEYYYY, GUESS WHO'S IN A GOOD MOOD TODAY? Yep,
me!! And that's saying a lot seeing as my car won't start.
Hopefully it'll start tomorrow, I left it in the Dunkin Donut's
parking lot for the night. Anyway, I got shows coming up. The next
few months will be the shit! I got a show at Hennessy's, a show
every week at Felt for about a month, a show at The Estate, and I'm
also playing at Wheaton College to try and pull in some more fans.
I know that once I start playing venues and I get seen I'll finally
get some fans. I have some now, but I need to get the ball rolling.
I'll be sending my music to college radio stations in the area,
also, so I plan on having a lot more fans by this time next month.
Mmmm, life's sweet, ain't it? I fixed "We've Got the World to
See Now". It sounds a helluva lot better, a lot more like the pop
hit I expected it to be. I also wrote my mom a song, "Oh Yola" for
her birthday which was on the 16th. She loves it, but I still want
to make it better. I'm so obsessive, I'm sure I will eventually.
I watched a documentary on The Doors, "When You're Strange".
I fell in love with Jim Morrison, though I was already in love with
his music. I've been paying a lot more attention to musicians than
their music lately, I've been trying to understand more of who they
are and how it relates to their music. I can't help but notice the
similarities between myself and the artists I connect with most:
Jimi Hendrix, Janis Joplin, Kurt Cobain, Amy Winehouse, and now Jim
Morrison. Granted, they're all in the 27 club (they all died at age
27), but shockingly that has nothing to do with my selection. I
love many different kinds of music from many artists, but I
sympathize with the self-destructive, eccentric, and lonely
crowd-pleasers. It isn't something I talk about often, but I'm only
20 and I seem to be headed down a self-destructive road. I have an
appointment with a therapist Wednesday, thanks to my doctor and
Kerry who convinced me to see someone. I hope it helps.
Back to the point. I set out to do something, and I'm doing
it. I remember saying something about expecting to have a strong
foothold in the music business by September.. and I think all these
shows I have definitely qualify as a "strong foothold". Now I say
by January, I'm gonna be getting big. I can't believe I started
this journey in April... I can't believe it's only been 5 months. I
am a BEAST.
LIFE'S OOOOOOOOOKAY (for now) =]
16 Set 2011 · Da mymusicrevolution.blogspot.com/ ·
Woah, I was smacked in the face by reality today. I made a
song that I thought would be awesome, "You Got The World To See",
and I ended up HATING it. And I know why. I was going commercial on
this one. I thought I could make a song so catchy that it would get
popular instantly. I was going to send it to college radio stations
and watch the fans roll in. Should I still? I took it down from the
internet just a few hours after putting it up, I was so disgusted
with it. But you always hear of a musicians hating a song that
turns out becoming quite popular, maybe I should make some
adjustments to it and ask someone else to give it a listen. A
couple people liked it on Facebook, but I need some serious
feedback. Upon listening to all my songs, I've also decided that,
though I do have an "eclectic" style, I want to stick to certain
styles. Some times I go a little.. overboard let's say. Girly love
songs talking about drinking whiskey? Yeah okay, get it together
jackass. But I have. I totally got it together today. Sadly that
means that I have more work to do, Dreadknot's about to get a fresh
12 Set 2011 · Da mymusicrevolution.blogspot.com/ ·
Yes I write several songs everyday (though they're all pretty
incomplete), but I wrote
the song today. It's called "You've Got The World To See". I
will record it asap. What an ironic day I've had, I made plans in
Boston but ended up forgetting my wallet in Norton because I'm an
idiot. I had to drive back to Norton.. I barely have money for gas
so I'm just staying here tonight. On the bright side, I ended up
writing this song.
The song. Trust me.
Now please excuse me, I've got the world to see.
1 Set 2011 · Da mymusicrevolution.blogspot.com/ ·
This guy I met at the conference, Haze617, offered me a ride
back to Boston. He definitely saved me from having to stay in
Washington D.C. for a whole weekend and from wasting money on
hotels.. however, his rental car was not allowed to do a one way
trip. It took us until about 6pm to find a rental; with my being
too young to rent and his money on hold until Monday from the last
car rental, it was almost impossible to get someone to let us rent.
At the Ronald Reagan airport in Virginia, we found one single car
company where the guy at the desk used my card for Haze's car
rental. Haze then gave me $200, meaning I would cover the other 150
on my card. It was a lot to pay, but I'm glad I got out of there.
The hurricane had just arrived in Virginia, so any longer and we
would have been stuck. It was a crazy experience driving through
the hurricane (Haze did all the driving so I got to sit back and
relax, something I usually never get to do), and now I have an
awesome story to tell people.
Still, I wonder, was it worth it? Will those record companies
ever get back to me? Either way, it's the end of the summer and I'm
done giving music 200% of my energy. I got a job at DoggieDay Care,
which I think I will absolutely love, and I'm going to continue
giving music 100%. Yes, I know, it's a shame, but you know what?